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12/03/2004

One thought about Fuzzy's Xmas present

I have bought some materials for making her present for Xmas. I have not done anything to make it yet. Better make it at work, but how do I do this without other noticing?

Hope things are going well at home front.

When things fall into places

Today I have done nothing that looked constructive, but actually I have accomplished quite a lot. I found out how much I am earning per month, and discovered that there are a lot of money in my account already. Cool! Some money for Xmas shopping? No, I am going to enjoy the first full account for four years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy about this. Also got wind that my university supervisor is back from his conference from the South Island. Cool. I will be able to go up to university and ask him questions then.

I am planning to take the same amount of off time as my work supervisor, though. Am not going to worry too much about university supervisor as I will have more queries once I start doing the bacteria experiments.

Today I have got more papers! The paper count is about 94 now, and it looks to me that it will go over 100 soon. There are a lot of advertisements in this hundred papers and some are totally irrelevant stuff anyway. Isn't that cool? I think the Ruakura library is very fast, and the librarians are more helpful to students. Waikato's librarians are too busy, and slow in getting papers. Maybe they just have too much things to do!

Talked with Abu, Tofushark and cousin glace. They are all fine! Cool. Very happy today. But my work supervisor is sorting out boring budget before the year ends. So boring. So tired. But can't help her out too much because wasn't here before.

Good luck my dear supervisor. I am skyving off home soon.

Da Vinci's code the movie ?!

I just got this news from IMDB that Tom Hanks is going to play Robert Langdon. Sorry, but I don't think he is suitable at all. Why can't they find someone like Clive Owen to play Robert? I pictured Robert as someone who is cuter, and more English than any American actor can be(!) Anyway, I haven't seen anyone who is better than Clive so I posted on the thread.

I reckon that Tom will definitely ruin the atmosphere of the film, so if he really is going to play Robert, then I am not going to watch the film. That will just break my heart.

Other characters are not that critical, I don't mind watching new actors/actresses to play these roles. Some new actors/actresses are actually better than the established ones.

To be critical, I must say that some movies have chosen the wrong people and that's mainly the reason why some movies didn't make it. For example, Nicolas Cage in National Treasure? I like Nicolas Cage, but NOT as a tomb raider, thank you very much.

12/02/2004

Some more thoughts before getting off work

Just finished a Caramello bar and it seems to me that everyone has left work. Our group leader has hosted a meeting with a US senator(!) Cool.

I think I will try to think what to do tomorrow, but apart from that, will be pretty much a breeze for the rest of the today.

I am worried about the ozone generator now, and very much in love with this guy I met in the conference. God, please give me strength to resist temptation and love in general so I can survive the rest of this year. Hope next year will come in no time and it will be all over in a wink of an eye. Or will it? Is he the guy of my life that I will not be able to avoid? Is he the guy who will be brave enough to take me up as a challenge? Or is he just the friendly guy who does not want anything to do with me, just being his normal self? I hope, sincerely hope, the answer is not the last one. But of course, I always have a very good imagination and not very good boyfriend-getting skills. I hope that by being myself and not pretending to be someone who I am not, will help me on this front. If he really likes me, then he will do something about it. I won't go and ask this guy. Look what happened to the last guy I asked out: it didn't work out and we are not talking at all. What a disaster! I wish this time that I will be able to wait longer. Just silently saying: I love you. Can you feel it? Can you feel that my heart is slowly breaking up into small pieces? Can you feel that my brain is slowly digesting itself and my whole life slowly floating pass in front of my eyes? Can you imagine letting go here? No. I can't. But I will have to take things slowly. Any slower then I will probably be a suspended animation. A picture on the wall.

See you. I wish to see you. I wish to see you later. I wish to see you later and you will call me. I wish to see you later and you will call me back and I will say yes. I wish to see you later and you will call me back and I will say yes to your invitation to dinner. So nice. Love ya!

Pining is of no use

Told Fuzzyslowmo about the guy I met at the Christmas party. This time will be cautious and develop friendship slowly. Wish that this will go smoothly so we will actually be something more than friends.

He is such a nice guy! Not too tall and not too short. He is cute, strong (not too much muscle, either). He is kind and caring, and perhaps a little cheeky? I wish that he feels the same about me so we can develop the normal friendship, then later can develop into something else.

Sent the DVD Thirteen Days back to the video shop. It's broken in the middle. My DVD player is very delicate so can't play this DVD.

I borrowed Vin Diesel's XXX. It's a great action film, and really funny. I love it. It's the best since 007. I think it's better than 007 this time. Anyway, there is not tangerine thong. Hahahahaha. He is very cool and actually quite smart even though he looks like a stupid punk.

I don't know what will happen tomorrow. Not much work done, I suppose. I wish my supervisor will call the ozone generator company up so it will come back sometimes next week. Read the radiation superbug again. So cool! This group of people are very good at writing paper. I should learn from them. Their way of setting up experiment is also very good.

We had a mastitis group meeting as well. It was great. Everyone were sort of relaxed after the conference. It's the time to sum everything up and try to get some "closure", like my colleague said. Cool! I like closure. Isn't that a great feeling?

Anyway, better go otherwise will be caught not doing any work.

12/01/2004

You only have to ask

Christmas conference, party, get-together: you name it, I believe that I've gone to the best ever.

I think that if the party your organisation throws reflects on the true feeling of the workers and bosses. Bosses are, afterall, humans, as well as the person who cracks the whip. If you are a successful organisation, then your workers will be more than happy to attend your function, and act accordingly! That's exactly what happened in Dexcel. My, I am so glad that I chose to work here instead of the university. So alive!

Highlights include "Days of our lives". I think these are very well done, and can be more realistic than perception. Although people have "fun" when making these clips, it also contain subtle messages about how some jobs are viewed as not so hard and can involve quite a lot of brain/muscle work. Amazing. I have never seen an organisation that is so keen to listen to one another. That's probably the only difference between Western and Eastern organisations.

I thoroughly enjoyed the dance. Believed that it had rekindled some kind of girly dream about high school dances. Very dangerous. Trying to put out fires about a boy. Very hard. Already finish the party so should keep head down to work, but this boy is bloody persistent, telling me that he wants to talk with me instead of going to a hot, steamy, spring-flowing, blondes-filling town called Rotorua. >_< That's weird. O.K. Think too much and must be brain-frizzed again. Hahahahahaha. Why... he is a nice guy. Why can't I just stand afar and watch the nice looking man? That's not a crime.

You only have to ask. Yes. I am sittig by myself and not dancing. You only have to ask me to dance, don't be shy.

11/29/2004

Path toward greatness

Dexcel is having its annual meeting, and I am sure without the workers the meeting will just be a blur. It's because the workers are all putting in their best, so the annual general meeting is fun and interesting. (I wouldn't know it hasn't started yet.)

This morning the sky is very grey and have no idea why the weather is so bad today. It must have been the Tasmania weather, a storm is brewing slowly, and the low pressure is sitting on top of me before I wake up. Getting up is not hard, but I can hear mum's footsteps slowly dragging across the floor after the clock chimed. It's so comfortable! I am still dreaming my dream on my bed!

8:00a.m. I am already putting the internet sucket into my computer. Extra early today so can help my supervisor a little bit. She is fussing over the job for the afternoon: the meeting. I hope she is going to be alright. I hope my workmates will not bite her head off.

I also hope, in the process of working for Dexcel, that I can finally find a place to work. Don't mean it's Dexcel, but I truly love the energy that these scientists are giving out. Even though my supervisor has told me that scientist do research only 20~30% of their time! What they do in the other 70~80% is probably broken down into: papers (finding/writing/preparing), meetings (preparing/calling), socialising/net-working with other scientists (i.e. conferences), and a little bit of brain exercise called innovation. Hahahahahahaha, yes, just lazying around and do nothing. But no, don't be so harsh because after a day of sitting in front of computer, your brain and your hands will hurt so much that you don't want to come back and work, ever. So you will want to get some samples and process them even though they are boring and repeatitive most of the time. It's actually quite o.k. because the environment is so good that you will forget all of your sorrow after you have seen the grass. NOT the Cow. They give you headache because they are moody sometimes. They are all cute and fuzzy in a good way, but they are cow afterall.

Better get going, otherwise may be left here without any transportation and rain is coming quickly.

Going back to the weekend

Sunday has been quite uneventful compared to Saturday. The party at M's was great. I love her house! So free. But there weren't a lot of furniture at all. Actually, no dining table. I don't think I live without my dining table even though it doesn't exist at this moment. Haha! How would I ever live without my parents? They do pay for everything, you know. I am so lucky.

Borrowed 6 movies again. Wanted to save money but apparently couldn't because mum and Fuzzyslowmo wanted to watch more movies. Grabbed them from shelves, and because mum was paying so I didn't protest too much. Watched Tears of the Sun (yes, more realist movie by Bruce Willis) and What a Girl Wants (yes, when I was a girl I wanted to be a princess, but clearly not an English one). ?_? /_\