My inflated ego has been making me irritated about everything. A good weekend turned into custard after waiting to ride horses for three days, I am still waiting patiently, and I am not going to apologize that I blew up. I am still angry!
Fuzzy probably thinks I am mad because I have everything in the world, but in fact, I feel lonely, helpless, trying to please everybody else but myself. It's that feeling you get when you try to do a lot, and you are still not satisfied.
We have clearly forgotten to bring the Mother's Day gift that we meant to bring, and that was a disaster. Although his mum didn't seen to mind, I think I will be very angry if I don't get any presents!
We left on Friday. That was after considerable debate between me and Theo. That was hard, he's got a point about the bad weather, I just want to get there as fast as possible and didn't understand why he wanted to hang around in our home town. We talked on the way to his parents' place. It was a terrible day for driving, but we managed to stay dry until we arrive at the destination.
His parents were really happy to see us.
I will add more later.
Jo and her boyfriend Christian came to visit this weekend. I managed to do a lot of things at home. It is my wish to have a tidy home so I can sit down and write my novel or diary. I haven't done that for a long time, and I love writing. It makes me feel better to write down what I am feeling, and making up story somehow makes my miserable life better.
I've been writing a story about Rose Snow Anderson and Dominique Henry Carrington. Interesting names with reference to Snow White and Seven Dwarfs. She's a senior designer in a company that has been asked to open a design school in New York, and he's her personal assistant. I will try very hard to write this story and somehow finish it. So far it's been interesting, writing how Snow White's mother died during childbirth, and how her father hasn't remarried anyone yet. I wonder who he will marry? Interesting development in my novel that will be. I've been thinking about the seven dwarfs lately. Should they be her teachers? Some strangers? Some of them even women? It will be interesting to develop these character and mold them into shapes in my book.
I am planning more novels at the moment so it will keep me occupied.
I've canned the idea of going down to Taranaki for riding. It's too hard. However, maybe I should still go down with Theodotus so we can ask Nana to come to watch Star Trek with us. She's missing out a lot! Wondering what she will think of the new fangle movies in the theatre, eh? Maybe even ask Theodotus's mum to come, but having second thoughts at the moment since last time it didn't exactly go well as planned. Food poisoning and all.
Mum asked me to stay home next week for dad's birthday and DuwanWu Festival. Roy's having his birthday/leaving party on that night. I think I will still be able to make it home for a bit of Chinese triangular rice ball. Yum. Oh, I forgot mum can only make glutinous rice. Still very yum. I am hungry!
Weather has cleared up a lot. I have to go house hunting again this weekend, at least on Sunday. I made a card for Emma's 2nd birthday. It will be very fun wearing a fake crown with her at the party. I am debating which books to give her. I want all of them for myself!
I have been a bit lazy on the Chinese dress front, however, I think it will be made very soon as there's not a lot more to do for it at all. Just sewing it up and it will be all ready. It's quite scary, isn't it? I am thinking about how to decorate the venue now. It's really good that I've found some pictures of Chinese hotels and they offer very beautiful wall motifs that I may be able to steal for my wedding. Interesting and difficult to accomplish. It will be a kind of challenge for me. :)
It's all going well with the planning, though. My book is my friend, it has a good time line and I am keeping everything up to date.
