I will do anything in my power to help you because I love you. I know that I can't tell you about my feelings, but I don't think it's important. Surely, you can feel it in my tone.
I am so glad that someone cares about me, maybe it's finally time when I am going to be okay. It's the stress that's getting to me, but if it brings us closer, I think I can take on this difficult task.
There's so much that I want to tell you with so little time. I will just tell you the important stuff. It's going to be alright because you are there for me. I know, and I am so happy that you are. When this love is no longer a secret, I know I will be free. Until then, I will be waiting here patiently.
7/04/2007
7/03/2007
Blue
July is proving to be a month that is full of surprises. I think if I survive this month, I can survive anything.
It is getting warmer because the rain has started and the frosts have gone away. There was some snow in the South Island and in the mountain ranges, but this week, it had been raining a lot. The farm is muddy. I went walking under the majestic oak trees today. Half of my mind is on the road, and the other half is on Erik. I was hoping that maybe I will see him driving back from his flat to work, but I didn't seen him come back.
The meeting with boss went great. We will live another day, but how many of us will live in the same condition is uncertain.
The experiment didn't go so well, but I believe that eventually we will get the result we want. It's only the beginning, and the end is so close!
I asked Erik what happened to him on Sunday to make him sick yesterday. He said that he has hay fever. It's a strange time to get struck down by the spring illness, but allergy is like that. If you know what's bothering you, then you won't get allergic, right?
Ai asked Erik whether he is going out with anyone or not. He is not. She also asked him about his ex-girlfriend, who is his neighbour (older than him by 2 years), but they are just friends now. He also said that he wants to focus on studying. I can't believe that this is happening. Maybe, just maybe, we will finally get together? Then he is trying to avoid me this afternoon. I feel sad, but at the same time, excited. I have been dreaming about him every night now, it's really bad. I need to sleep!
There's Thursday and Friday to look forward to, and I will go to Rotorua in the weekend to see my beloved Ruth. Yay! Road trip. I am going to work hard even though I am so tired right now.
There's a lot of cleaning to do, and if I am not going to do it in the weekend, I better finish them today and tomorrow.
It is getting warmer because the rain has started and the frosts have gone away. There was some snow in the South Island and in the mountain ranges, but this week, it had been raining a lot. The farm is muddy. I went walking under the majestic oak trees today. Half of my mind is on the road, and the other half is on Erik. I was hoping that maybe I will see him driving back from his flat to work, but I didn't seen him come back.
The meeting with boss went great. We will live another day, but how many of us will live in the same condition is uncertain.
The experiment didn't go so well, but I believe that eventually we will get the result we want. It's only the beginning, and the end is so close!
I asked Erik what happened to him on Sunday to make him sick yesterday. He said that he has hay fever. It's a strange time to get struck down by the spring illness, but allergy is like that. If you know what's bothering you, then you won't get allergic, right?
Ai asked Erik whether he is going out with anyone or not. He is not. She also asked him about his ex-girlfriend, who is his neighbour (older than him by 2 years), but they are just friends now. He also said that he wants to focus on studying. I can't believe that this is happening. Maybe, just maybe, we will finally get together? Then he is trying to avoid me this afternoon. I feel sad, but at the same time, excited. I have been dreaming about him every night now, it's really bad. I need to sleep!
There's Thursday and Friday to look forward to, and I will go to Rotorua in the weekend to see my beloved Ruth. Yay! Road trip. I am going to work hard even though I am so tired right now.
There's a lot of cleaning to do, and if I am not going to do it in the weekend, I better finish them today and tomorrow.
7/02/2007
Red hot chilly Erik in grey cold winter day
I can't believe that I am still alive after five o'clock today. I am so tired! I need a holiday!
Erik called in sick first thing in the morning. Apparently, he didn't listen to me and went swimming yesterday. Ai told me that his eyes looked red, and his face was sunburnt! How can you get sunburnt in winter? Erik managed to do just that. OOooooohhhh.......It's not anybody else's fault that he's sick. She also gave me useful information such as the person who keeps texting him is not his girlfriend. Thanks a lot, Ai. I think we can be certain that Erik is still single, for how long, I don't know. I hope he likes me a little so my life is not entirely meaningless.
Dad was angry about me parking too close to the wall last night. He was overreacting. The car was still about 10 cm from the wall, and I couldn't even see any dent on the wall, either. I cried for 10 minutes, bawling my eyes out because he was very mean. I was also very sad because Erik would be leaving soon and he will just go back to Whangarei and forget about me. I am glad that I cried so got all that grief out of my system. I actually felt a lot better after crying and watched Mansfield Park. The movie was bland. I didn't like the story. I don't understand why Edmond fell in love with Fanny so quickly. There was no reason for him mentioned in the movie, and if you compare Mansfield Park to Pride and Prejudice, it is not very good.
I just hope that work will get easier and Erik will finally wake up and grow up.
Erik called in sick first thing in the morning. Apparently, he didn't listen to me and went swimming yesterday. Ai told me that his eyes looked red, and his face was sunburnt! How can you get sunburnt in winter? Erik managed to do just that. OOooooohhhh.......It's not anybody else's fault that he's sick. She also gave me useful information such as the person who keeps texting him is not his girlfriend. Thanks a lot, Ai. I think we can be certain that Erik is still single, for how long, I don't know. I hope he likes me a little so my life is not entirely meaningless.
Dad was angry about me parking too close to the wall last night. He was overreacting. The car was still about 10 cm from the wall, and I couldn't even see any dent on the wall, either. I cried for 10 minutes, bawling my eyes out because he was very mean. I was also very sad because Erik would be leaving soon and he will just go back to Whangarei and forget about me. I am glad that I cried so got all that grief out of my system. I actually felt a lot better after crying and watched Mansfield Park. The movie was bland. I didn't like the story. I don't understand why Edmond fell in love with Fanny so quickly. There was no reason for him mentioned in the movie, and if you compare Mansfield Park to Pride and Prejudice, it is not very good.
I just hope that work will get easier and Erik will finally wake up and grow up.
7/01/2007
Weekend work
I have started writing Zoospy again, finally feel that everything is settled down and my mind is clearer. I am going to complete this story.
I found two tubes on my bench this morning. Shock horror. I am still going to purify them tomorrow to see if there's any proteins. I am sure there are quite a lot, and the temperature in the room is not high enough to denature proteins. If I still can't manage to make enough, I will have to make this protein again.
Fuzzy and MQ went shopping with me. The electricity was out so the movie theatre was closed, the Eftpos machines not working so you had to buy lunch using cash, and the food court was serving food that didn't require heating. It was hard! There was a storm so possibly the generator was taken out. We enjoyed shopping, though. I bought a pair of earrings, matching necklace and a blue square pattern headband. The blue square pattern headband is so cute! I am going to wear it to work.
Cousin Gina replied my e-mail about moving today. She is enduring the hot summer in Taiwan. Hopefully, she will be able to keep cool and swim a lot. It's very humid and stuffy. Sometimes, summer can get a bit too much in Taiwan.
I bought lunch in Cambridge Rd bakery, it's quite popular. A lot of people went to buy food there even though it was raining hard. Guess not a lot of people are cooking on Sundays.
Better finish work so I can still enjoy the rest of my weekend.
I found two tubes on my bench this morning. Shock horror. I am still going to purify them tomorrow to see if there's any proteins. I am sure there are quite a lot, and the temperature in the room is not high enough to denature proteins. If I still can't manage to make enough, I will have to make this protein again.
Fuzzy and MQ went shopping with me. The electricity was out so the movie theatre was closed, the Eftpos machines not working so you had to buy lunch using cash, and the food court was serving food that didn't require heating. It was hard! There was a storm so possibly the generator was taken out. We enjoyed shopping, though. I bought a pair of earrings, matching necklace and a blue square pattern headband. The blue square pattern headband is so cute! I am going to wear it to work.
Cousin Gina replied my e-mail about moving today. She is enduring the hot summer in Taiwan. Hopefully, she will be able to keep cool and swim a lot. It's very humid and stuffy. Sometimes, summer can get a bit too much in Taiwan.
I bought lunch in Cambridge Rd bakery, it's quite popular. A lot of people went to buy food there even though it was raining hard. Guess not a lot of people are cooking on Sundays.
Better finish work so I can still enjoy the rest of my weekend.
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