Changing weather

Winter is the best time to sit down and reflect. These days, I tend to be in my gloomy mood a lot, thinking more on the negative sides rather than the positive. I've tried to go to the library and find some books to relax me, but this didn't work. I've tried to cook some nice food for the cold winter nights, but I can't eat too much for the sake of fitting into my pants. The only distraction now is wedding planning. However, wedding planning can get a person a bit frazzled, too. The trick is to dream a little still, and I do have time on my side.
What do I want to achieve in my spare time after work? I want to read more books, understand more about the world, learn about how to get more eco-friendly, do more crafts, clean and arrange my place so I can have a more comfortable life, and spend more quality time with K. I have to work on "spend more quality time with K". Should I be more romantic and light the candles for him more? Or should I be more practical and help him with more housework? Where's the spark in our life together? We should have more fun.
There are many unfinished craft projects at home. I have a cello, four butterflies, and a blue scarf to complete. The scarf has a small hole in the middle, but since it is my first knitting project, I will treat it as a practice run. Looking back at the dolls that I made myself, I don't think I will make any money as a doll maker. Craft is my hobby, and I really like spending time making something for myself. The two purple romantic dolls that I made are beautiful even though they don't look as elegant as the doll in the pattern book. They are made by recycle materials. I wish that I can keep making dolls in my spare time. It's fun.
I have moved most of my winter wardrobe to my room and arranged everything so they are accessble. Just discovered that the olive green wool top goes with my olive green skirt. I can wear them to work tomorrow! Just hope that I won't have another terrible morning trying to match clothes just after I get out of bed: my mind is muddy and my eyes can't really tell which top goes with which bottom.
What makes a wedding memorable and great? I think Kelly has got it right: a short and sweet ceremony will keep everyone happy, and good food for the reception is important. I have been to several Taiwanese weddings, and I was involved in some as flowergirl when I was young. The good weddings had nice food, speeches were not long or there was no speeches at all. However, I remember that the brides wore thick coat of make-up on their faces and that wasn't very good at all. The candy on the table kept people talking and occupied before the banquet start. Red envelopes are recorded in a pink book with name and amount. The advantage of this is that I can write a thank-you note easily, and the disadvantage of this is that the friendship can't be measured by how much money you give to your friend on their wedding and gifts have more personal input than money. However, you can get too many sets of wine glasses after the wedding so gift registery is a must.
My aunt's engagement followed the Taiwanese tradition, and it was long and a bit of a torture on the bride and groom. I particularly remember our good friend's wedding, she invited us to her house before the ceremony and we saw her family home and talked with her mum and her sisters. It was a great atmosphere. People were genuinely welcoming that day. These are the good points to take from Taiwanese weddings.
I don't know why I get so gloomy anymore. There are so many things to think about and to do in life. I have new projects to do at work even though I still don't know whether I will have a job next month. I am beyond caring now. If I do, then it's great. It I don't, I will find another job. It's not the end of the world. I will write CVs and coverletters to employers. What's there to be afraid of in this world? I have done the hardest thing already: survive my first job, so I can take on this challenge, too. I have been so bored at home before, flying kite and losing weight in the seven months when I didn't go to university. I have bought a book about how to write effective CVs, been rejected countless of times, been interviewed in different cities, on teleconference, and finally accepted. I even have the experience of hearing potential employee being manipulative on the interview! Take a leaf out of that guy's book and learn from it.
After all, when the rain is gone, it will be another sunny day.