I don't know if anybody is reading this, but I will come out and say this: if you ever have a problem, don't bottle it up. It will not help you solve the problem, and I can assure you that your friends and family know that you have a problem. They will notice the difference in you, and it's real hard to cover it up.
One of my friend is having big trouble right now. Everytime I asked this person, this person told me that "Don't worry, I will be fine." That speech is a big fat lie! I don't think this person is fine, and I keep worrying about this person's problem.
I don't know how to help because my friend is not telling me the whole story. In fact, I think my friend can't tell me because there's a vow of secret. I am sorry to say this but I don't care about swearing to secrecy about the problem. Just get on with it! Spit it out. Tell me what's wrong. I can not handle it anymore. No more cover-ups, no more secret, no more vow of secrecy. I am the straight type. There's nothing to be afraid of! I just want to get to the bottom of things.
It's been going on about two weeks or more than that now. I am so fed up with this friend, that I may consider stop helping. What's the point anyway? This person is not BETTER. This person is getting worse everyday, and I think it's a trick! This friend is not doing well, and lying about it is not going to help much, is it? It's too much, and I am so glad that blog is here to hear me out. Me and other friends of this person are so worried, pulled our hearts out for this person, but you know what? The person is still covering up the problem, the trouble, and I hate that! I don't know what to do.
It's so frustrating. I think I will just leave this person be. There's nothing we can do anymore. We all tried very hard to keep up.
I talked to my family members. They all gave me very good advices about what to do. I think it's not my problem, either. I am glad it's not my problem to deal with.
I talked to my other more cheerful friend today. She's got a new man. Her life is so much better. That's the way it should be: spit it out, please. Tell me the dirty detail. I won't reveal anymore detail to other people. No one will know anyway. If I have any inkling about what's happening to this annoyed friend of mine, I would help this person and do something about it. But I can't at this stage. I wouldn't interfere because again, it's got nothing to do with me. I am happy and sad for her. She is growing up and struggling to become an adult. However, it's not the way it should be, she is growing up to a wrong type. You should always be sensitive to other people's feelings, but think about your family and friends. They can be worried about you. They are watching and waiting for you to answer the question: What's wrong with you? What happened? Who is doing this to you? Who is hurting you so bad that you can't tell us? We care. But does this person care? No. This person does not care enough to tell me. So I am very disappointed.
Apart from that, today has been so fine. My exp. worked, and the weather is warm. It's a bit humid as well. However, that's all good because I can sense summer is finally coming. Great weather.
10/10/2004
busy whole day
I can not believe how busy I am, but I am sure that other people must be busier than I.
I am totally double booked between 10a.m. Biotechnology exam is coming up next Tuesday, and I haven't studied enough, as I always study in the last minute. Jennifer called while mum and dad were getting vegs from the market. She said that William came back from Australia.
It didn't click until the minute I want to get out of the house. It's that William. Oh, so I was going out slowly, and called her again to confirm where I am going. I am still late because can never remember where her house is. I am not very good with directions. However, I can't remember the last time that I've been there. It's been too long.
Her parents were pretty cool. William wanted to sell his car, so he left his car. He is studying PhD in Sydney university, about Computer Science. His project is going to be on Mueseum tour. It's going to be about Artificial Intelligence.
He is a nice guy. I must admit that I didn't know him that well. Ha, his sister just got online.
I think I understand now why he will attract so many young women. He is a charming guy!
Ok. Lisa called in Jennifer's house and asked me if I want to go for coffee in town after the class meeting. Can you believe it? I will have virtually no time to study today.
Oh, alright. We talked for straight two hours, even though I was late. It was so boring. Anyway, a Chinese guy just sat there and took no note. I was wondering who he is. How can he do well in the exam if he doesn't write down anything? He is either very smart or very dumb.
I had to take Lisa, Megan and Ajay home. It was bad because I was tired and grumpy. I drove recklessly, and of course, Ajay is complaining about my driving style. How can I drive nicely when I am tired and bothered, and too warm? Whew...finally they got home. Megan told me that she finally hooked up with the guy she likes. Oh, so great! Good on ya, Megan. If she sees this she is gonna kill me.
Take Farina and Lisa to city. We had to drink coffee in Robert Harris again. Starbucks is always full when we are in the city. Don't know why. We always pick Saturday or Friday. The coffee shop is always full with lines of people. What's up with them? Why do they all have to crowd into the same shop? Is it really a cool place? It's expensive, though. It's about two bucks more expensive than Robert Harris, and its coffee is not as good. So why do people still go? I think it's because it's new and popular.
I finally go home (dropped the two girls off), and eat dinner. It was a nice dinner, and we found out that the city's new mayor is Mr. Redman. He is the youngest mayor ever, and five councilmen didn't get elected. Citizens of Hamilton certain do not like the incumbent, so they didn't vote for these five people. We have problems, such as the New Stadium, which we can not pay off because it's too expensive, and the rubbish using plastic bags because company wants to make money. It's not green! I thought New Zealand is supposed to be the greenest country in the world, but it's not. It's bad for the environment to use plastic bag to collect rubbish. I think we should go back to using bin or something that doesn't have to get thrown away.
I watched the Last of the Mohigans with my parents. It's a great movie, and I know how to play the song using my cello. Cool, eh? It's so tragic that everyone had to die, but that's life, and more factual. I liked the younger Indian and Alice. It's sad and beautiful.
Yesterday watched Next Stop Wonderland. Also a nice romantic movie. Happy and sad at the same time. I love it! It's such a nice movie that it surpass all the other movies that I've seen recently. Just as good as Life as a House. That movie was very inspirational movie, but also dark and sad. There are a lot of love and laughter, too. Nicely done!
I am totally double booked between 10a.m. Biotechnology exam is coming up next Tuesday, and I haven't studied enough, as I always study in the last minute. Jennifer called while mum and dad were getting vegs from the market. She said that William came back from Australia.
It didn't click until the minute I want to get out of the house. It's that William. Oh, so I was going out slowly, and called her again to confirm where I am going. I am still late because can never remember where her house is. I am not very good with directions. However, I can't remember the last time that I've been there. It's been too long.
Her parents were pretty cool. William wanted to sell his car, so he left his car. He is studying PhD in Sydney university, about Computer Science. His project is going to be on Mueseum tour. It's going to be about Artificial Intelligence.
He is a nice guy. I must admit that I didn't know him that well. Ha, his sister just got online.
I think I understand now why he will attract so many young women. He is a charming guy!
Ok. Lisa called in Jennifer's house and asked me if I want to go for coffee in town after the class meeting. Can you believe it? I will have virtually no time to study today.
Oh, alright. We talked for straight two hours, even though I was late. It was so boring. Anyway, a Chinese guy just sat there and took no note. I was wondering who he is. How can he do well in the exam if he doesn't write down anything? He is either very smart or very dumb.
I had to take Lisa, Megan and Ajay home. It was bad because I was tired and grumpy. I drove recklessly, and of course, Ajay is complaining about my driving style. How can I drive nicely when I am tired and bothered, and too warm? Whew...finally they got home. Megan told me that she finally hooked up with the guy she likes. Oh, so great! Good on ya, Megan. If she sees this she is gonna kill me.
Take Farina and Lisa to city. We had to drink coffee in Robert Harris again. Starbucks is always full when we are in the city. Don't know why. We always pick Saturday or Friday. The coffee shop is always full with lines of people. What's up with them? Why do they all have to crowd into the same shop? Is it really a cool place? It's expensive, though. It's about two bucks more expensive than Robert Harris, and its coffee is not as good. So why do people still go? I think it's because it's new and popular.
I finally go home (dropped the two girls off), and eat dinner. It was a nice dinner, and we found out that the city's new mayor is Mr. Redman. He is the youngest mayor ever, and five councilmen didn't get elected. Citizens of Hamilton certain do not like the incumbent, so they didn't vote for these five people. We have problems, such as the New Stadium, which we can not pay off because it's too expensive, and the rubbish using plastic bags because company wants to make money. It's not green! I thought New Zealand is supposed to be the greenest country in the world, but it's not. It's bad for the environment to use plastic bag to collect rubbish. I think we should go back to using bin or something that doesn't have to get thrown away.
I watched the Last of the Mohigans with my parents. It's a great movie, and I know how to play the song using my cello. Cool, eh? It's so tragic that everyone had to die, but that's life, and more factual. I liked the younger Indian and Alice. It's sad and beautiful.
Yesterday watched Next Stop Wonderland. Also a nice romantic movie. Happy and sad at the same time. I love it! It's such a nice movie that it surpass all the other movies that I've seen recently. Just as good as Life as a House. That movie was very inspirational movie, but also dark and sad. There are a lot of love and laughter, too. Nicely done!
10/08/2004
10/07/2004
Why does it always rain on me?
Because you care too much, that's why. I have not been studying for exam hard enough. Just got on net and blogging and killing puppet dolls again.
My friend has family/friend trouble, and she wouldn't tell us what happened. So sad. I thought she is trying to tell us something.
Today has been better, though. My plating has been great! I have became so fast! Just wish that the Red plates will come out ok. We will know in 2 days.
Just hope everything works out for my thesis.
Jane has another name, Sarah. She wants a baby, but obviously am too old to have one. So sad! She must have been working too hard and did not think babies are important! Well, that's life for you, I suppose.
My friend has family/friend trouble, and she wouldn't tell us what happened. So sad. I thought she is trying to tell us something.
Today has been better, though. My plating has been great! I have became so fast! Just wish that the Red plates will come out ok. We will know in 2 days.
Just hope everything works out for my thesis.
Jane has another name, Sarah. She wants a baby, but obviously am too old to have one. So sad! She must have been working too hard and did not think babies are important! Well, that's life for you, I suppose.
10/01/2004
How to kill gnome
Last night I had been writing a 6500 word essay. In the end, I can't cope anymore and stopped writing them.
Still have one essay to go, and some loose ends to tie up. However, I need a vacation!
It's Friday today. I've been taking things slowly now, because apparently, my expereiment is poisoning my lung. My throat is dry and my eyes are watering. I am going to move the experiment to a fume cupboard now. Thank God.
Now I am playing a MUD game called Dragon_realm. Actually, I was a paladin. You must think that this is a GEEK's game. But it is so much better than King of the Kings!
I had a lot of fun meeting people there, and now am killing gnome in Hogwarts. They write different areas with different stories, and a lot of people like to group together to solve quests and get new equipment. ISN't that fun?
Better get back doing that. However, need to study for the exam as well.
Still have one essay to go, and some loose ends to tie up. However, I need a vacation!
It's Friday today. I've been taking things slowly now, because apparently, my expereiment is poisoning my lung. My throat is dry and my eyes are watering. I am going to move the experiment to a fume cupboard now. Thank God.
Now I am playing a MUD game called Dragon_realm. Actually, I was a paladin. You must think that this is a GEEK's game. But it is so much better than King of the Kings!
I had a lot of fun meeting people there, and now am killing gnome in Hogwarts. They write different areas with different stories, and a lot of people like to group together to solve quests and get new equipment. ISN't that fun?
Better get back doing that. However, need to study for the exam as well.
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